Alone in the house and I found myself writing my To Do’s for the
next two months. It’s funny because I just had an operation two days ago. I had
a D&C (raspa) due to my second miscarriage/pregnancy L
As I look back on what happened, it still makes me sad but it no
longer breaks me. In my 34 years of existence I have learned some very good
lessons such as “don’t cry over spilled
milk”, “this too shall pass”, “grief melts away like snow in May, as if there’s
no such cold thing” and that “life is
just a matter of acceptance.”
A week before we found out about the baby’s heartbeat, I was
reading the book of Ed Lapiz entitled “PEACE” (It is a must read book)!
Honestly, I had those moments wherein I ask God why. But in
addition to the “why’s”, there’s
always the “I trust you God and I know
you know what’s best. You are perfect. You never make mistakes.” We cannot
lie to God, He knows our thoughts. So, when you are going through something
painful, be honest to God, cry out to Him if you want to but never doubt Him,
never ever doubt His Love.
Another thing that we can do is to look at the big picture. We
have to remind ourselves that this life is just temporary. We are just passing
through and this is not our Home. As long as we are on this earth, bad things
will happen. It doesn’t exempt us (Christians) from these things because we
still live in this sinful world.
The bible says “His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. His
ways are higher than our ways.” So, when we don’t understand (and most of the
time we will not), let just TRUST. Let us trust the Lord that He knows what He
is doing.
With this in mind, I have learned to look at the good things about
the whole situation. And true enough, when you try to look for it, you will
find a lot of blessings in disguise.
Below is a song from Laura Story entitled “Blessings.” This song
pretty much describes what I feel all throughout this painful situation and I hope
we can all find blessings through our tears!
Someday, our baby Raven will come and it will be an awesome day! :D
